Bubble
von
Christiane
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All is darkness around me
pale shadows are all i can see
from this place all light is gone
all deeds are done
i stand with empty hands
I watch the world go by
People around me are saying hi
I look at them with my eyes open wide
But my soul behind cannot hide
The hell that lies within
I walk alone through the crowd
Do not have a single doubt
That life is passing me by
I call my oh my
Why can’t I be like them?
They are so innocent and pure
I couldn’t resist the lure
What pulls me into the shadow
And shy away from the sunny meadow
Seeking shelter in my pain
Poison drips from the chalice
Cannot bear the worlds unknowing malice
I take it into my hands and stare
The mirror shows a maddened glare
Twisting, screaming rage rules my heart
I hide my pain behind a smile
It is not worth my while
And endless silent yell
From a distance I can hear the bell
ringing to the sound of my heart
Enclosed in my own little bubble
Fighting the endless pile of rubble
The worlds forever been locked out
I have to make do without
My scream goes unheard
I hammer against the walls
But none of them falls
They lock away all of my fears
They keep at bay all torment and all tears
The world moves on without me
poison wets my shaking lips
runs in shimmering drops from my fingertips
i long for it to end my pointless life
wake up again on the edge of the knife
another day breaks
Emptiness overpowers me
but people don’t see
my suffering and my pain
it takes me away in its bitter reign
drags me back to my self built cell
my bubble is my shelter and hoard
my prison, my refuge and ward
only here can i be me
but what the others cannot see
is my endless agony
i smile an endless smile
while my soul is full of bile
my cheeks are rosy and sweet
my body just a pile of living meat
darkness reigns within
i cannot find a way out
searching for it and running about
hunting with my eyes shut tight
my wary eyes are overpowered by the light
i fear what i do not know
deafening silence is my sole torment
screaming rage my twisting garment
i dance ecstatically with the night
laughing surrender to never ending dark delight
I welcome misery with open arms
With tears I give myself away
laughing and crying I lead myself astray
turn away from the light
give up all that’s bright
and turn back to my own little hell
alone again......... at last.......... I suffer....... a knowing bitter smile
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lena schrieb am 2010-05-03 17:45:10:
äähhhhhhhhhhhhh.............. ist das nicht ein bisschen zu lang?????????
ich wollte nur ein kurzes gedicht
P.S : manchmal ist weniger mehr
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